UNTUKMU IBU

camne nk mulakan ek kisah sedey ni...huhuh...
sedey ker????tak tau r bg korg camne...tp bg insan yg bernama AISHAH ABDULLAH ni, mmg sedih la gak...

ape yg sedih nyer kali ni, its ol bout my MOM!!!!!sejak da kompem further in master kt uia tuh, mak aku ni asyik buat 'tontonan' sedih kat aku...huhuh...

mula keje kt ipoh ni mase 16hb Julai 2008...masuk je keje kt ipoh ni, mmg slalu je sakit...kt ofis ni kiranyer aku la QUEEN of MC...QUEEN of LEAVE pn ye gak..hohoh...smpi naik bengang CP (mmg name sebenar...heh) yg kt HR tu dgn aku yg slalu cuti ni...

tp nk wat camne kan...da aku btol2 sakit....tak atu r naper....kalu demam tu, senang je nk dpt...ikutkan, aku ni susah gak nk demam..selsema ape tah lg....tp kt ipoh ni, ntah ape yg da jd kt aku ni....siap mata pun kene jangkitan sakit tu....huhuh....
paling parah bile jatuh mase hujan then kaki lak tersagat kt pintu...muamuamua..sakit bangat deh mase ni...tak leh gerak....jln pn tempang 4 meanwhile....sadis!!!!!

ehmmm..kesahh my mom ek....
mase raya haji tu, demam lg...then mak aku pn pe lagi....asyik dok risau jer...kater nyer, camne la kalu aku balik cheras nnti...edgn nk keje lg...nk blaja lg....da la slalu sakit jer skang ni...
MAK......percayalah, mase tuh mmg rase cam sedih sgt...nk menitik airmata ni tp thn jer...nape la mak ckp camtuh..buat hati ni rase berat je nk transfer ke cheras...tp master tu penting gak mak....huhuh...

serius, my mom really mak me cry la....actually, m not 2 close wif my mom...mase abah ader, rapat dgn abah....mane abah g jer, mesti nk ikut nyer...dia marah ke, tak bg ikut ker, duli aper...aku ikut gak....tp, bila abah da tak der skang ni, aku jd lekat kt umah jela...dgn mak pn stil tak bape rapat....tak penah ckp ttg studi dgn mak s i did b4 wif my dad....

sedih la....aku pn tak atu la camne kt cheras nnti..hope, aku dkurniakan kesihatan tubuh bdn yg baik senantiasa...amiiinn....tak mo r mak risau..kang tambah tak sihat lak dia....

MOM...even i never say diz directly 2 u but, deep in my heart....m really luv u...so much..m sory if i hurt u...m sory if m disappointing u....i want u know dat, m trying 2 b a gud daugther 4 u....
really luv u more than anythin else in diz world....

diz song i dedicated juz 4 u MOM....

SEBENING SEBASAH EMBUN PAGI.....
SECERAH SINARNYA MENTARI.....
BILAKU TATAP WAJAHMU IBU....
ADA KEHANGATAN DI DALAM HATIKU....
AIR WUDUK SELALU MEMBASAHIMU....
AYAT SUCI SELALU DI KUMANDANGKAN....
SUARA LEMBUT PENUH KELUH DAN KESAH.....
BERDOA UNTUK PUTERA PUTERI MU...
c/0 OH IBU KU......
ENGKAULAH WANITA...YANG KU CINTA SELAMA HIDUP KU...
MAAFKAN ANAKMU...BILA ADA SALAH......
PENGORBANAN MU TANPA BELAS JASA....
YA ALLAH....AMPUNI DOSANYA...
SAYANGILAH SEPERTI MENYAYANGI KU...
BERILAH DIA KEBAHAGIAAN....DI DUNIA JUGA DI AKHIRAT.....

(tajuk-IBU by Novi Sakha)

JiD TAG AKU MEH....

ape ke bnd tag ni pn ntah laaaaaa....demi kwn ku jid yg bkl kawin next year, aku buat gak la even aku ni blurr n blank bout diz TAG....huhuh
maklumlah...m QUEEN of BLUR...hikhik

I love.... MY FAMILY ( 4 sure laaa even never say diz directly 2 them)

I like.... COKLAT FLAVOR, MASAK MERAH yg pedas2, TEMPOYAK....heheh

I hate....PENIPU!!!! HOBI YG SUKE TIPU JER!!!!

I love listening.....MUSIC via MY DISCMAN n N95..LAGUz yg dolu2 kala..80's n 90's..hoh

wat m doing now..... keje while belajar kt UIA...MASTER..fuyoh...

wat m thinking now..... bile la nk ketemu jodoh ni..heheh..camne dgn klas master nnti...huhuh

I miss.... MY LATE FATHER..really miss him..so much...

I'm gonna miss..... MY HOME, MY BED.... coz goin back 2 cheras..transfer
back...nk blajo kan..

I think...... m ready enough 2 b a loyal lover, isteri solehah, ibu mithali...
(p'cayalah kwn2ku)

I will...... buy a CAR...get my DRIVING LICENSE soon..tak sabar2 nyer..kuikui

I want...... GOOD FUTURE 4 my CAREER especially..lain nyer, nk g
MELANCONG!!!!

my feeling now...... ehmmmmm....MARAH pn de gak....KOSONG pn ye gak coz
ntah..tak tau..

I thank to.... Allah coz give me HIS bless 2 me..dpt further MASTER..murahkan rezeki...

I hope.... ol MY DREAMz will come TRUE...sooner..insyaAllah..

I pray.... MY FAMILY alwayz in gud condition, dmurahkan rezeki,my sisters n bro success in
their life

my heart says dat..... I WANT 2 B S WAT M WANT 2 B!!!!!


p/s - jid, ni khas aku buat utk ko....heheheh....

NEW LIFE wif MASTER!!!!!yip yip hoorey

aloha.......

ni la stori mori utk hr ni stlh sekian lame aku b'holiday n mendiamkan diri atas sebab domam n sakit tekak yg melanda...huhuh...sakit je skang ni....

tak pe..meh stori ttg MASTER dulu...

04/12/2008

keramat day 4 my master!!!!finally i really further my staudy in master....but, yg tak kompem nye, btol ke nk in political sci???? dah nk start kelas ni but still kompius lg....huhuh

mase regist day tuh, aku, mimi n lidya bkn main ni ha....kul 7pg da gerak dr cheras ni...dlm kul 8pg da terpacak kt uia tuh....rupernyer regist start around 9.30am....hoh...semangat mbara tol kami ni...so, g la mkn2 kt HS cafe dulu...lamu gak da tak jejak kaki kt situ...huhuh...nk kater rindu tuh, nk rindu wat pe kan...bkn de sape2 on kt situ yg aku nk rindu merindu pun...hakhak...

sunyi tol uia mase tu...mane tak nye students smua nyer cuti2 blaka...bosan gak coz tak dpt jumpe sape2 pun....hukhukhuk...da hbs mkn n gebang2 baru gerak ke CAC....mak aiiii!!!!!!belambak nyer manusia yg nk further master ni...tp, rata2 nyer foreigners...mostly nyer indonesia daaaa....hukhukhuk...keciwak aku...tau keciwak nape????heheheh...keciwak coz camne nk ketemu jodoh ni kalu malay nyer ciput sgt....huhuhuh....mane la tau kan, dlm master ni lak jumpe jodoh nyer.....hikhikhikhik

punyer la lame aku Q dgn mimi...naik panas kaki tgn ni....da tu lak, offer letter aku still tak dpt lg...kene mintak lak kt dak cps ni..sengal tol....ader ke bg aku sekeping kertas offer letter without any other docs...mmg aku hangin!!!!! saje je nk naikkan suhu didih bdn aku ni...huhuh

takpe...sabar je lg....da tu kene Q kt banquet lak...uia ni mmg suke memaksimum kan p'gunaan ruang...lg ader ruang lg tu akn d gune nyer...ingat ni competition ke...hoh

turn aku 190..then no. yg d pggil bru je around 60...gilerz!!!!!!bape lame lg nih mau ku tggu....

tak jumpe pun member2 degree aku....sedih nyer...aku je ke yg further master....bosan gak kalu aku sorang jer...tak leh la nk buat 'hal' in class...huhuh....tp rase nyer dulu mase degree pun, kalu aku sorg2 pun, aku stil buat 'hal' gak...heheh...hal2 yg bagus...dulu sempoi jer mase degree...dtg kelas lewat..klas kul 8pg, 8pg la bru aku gerak dr kolej nk ke klas...bkn dkt oit..within 15minutes gak jln kaki nyer...huhuh...mase nk exam lak, hari yg same gk baru aku study...formula nyer sng je...mase klas lecturer lain, kita studi utk klas yg nk exam tuh...heheh...nasihat; tak elok amal slalu...2-3kali ok daaaaaa...kuikui.....ishq244....

wokay..smbung blik da worst regist day....huh...da msuk dlm cac, kene Q lg...asyik Q je...geram seh!!!! paling aku geram, da la dorg tak bg aku any docs yg important, ade hati nk menag konon2 nk kater dats not their fault....no way!!!!aku takkan bg dorg menag!!!!kalu dorg degil, aku lg degil dr dorg!!!!!dorg nk original transcript n degree aku...since aku takde bnd2 alah tu, aku nk gak dorg verify utk aku..kalu nk sgt kompem nyer aku ni dak uia, aku kater aku juz can shom them matric card aku jer...hakhak....lastly, kalah gak dorg...ehmmmmm!!!!gud job aishah!!!!

pastu, kt finance lak...buat hal gak dgn aku!!!!siut r dorg ni....payment kater tak cukup lak...da tuh sape soh tak gtau aku bape yg kene byr...huh...then salahkan aku lak nape tak kol dorg...ape lg...perang ala2 dingin la jap....aku da kol n asked them bout dat but, dorg yg jwb tak tau....tu pun salah aku ke????hoh...nk kene kickboxing ni...

disebabkan aku ni jenis yg tersangat la kuat n lembut (bak kater pija bg gantikan lemah n lembut..heh) so, aku mls nk smbung perang lg...kang kalu aku smbung, bom atom aku meletup, lg dahsyat...erkkkk...so, g bank byr je...means dat, on dat day, around rm900 gak duit aku terbang ke uia....huhuh....

pas setel tu smua, ade bi'ah session lak....ayta da la sejibik cam kt matrik uia dulu...ape daaaa....

dlm 4.30 gak la bru kitorg gerak dr uia ke cheras...hujan meh...lenjun gk kami org...tp, luckily gak la uia ni suke sgt buat bumbung...so, lenjun tu bleh thn gak r...tak kuyup pun...beza tau lenjun n kuyup...ecehceh....

'ala kulli hal....wat can i say....my life s a student, began....huhuh..takut nyer....hopefully diz time better than degree...aku ni jenis yg 'rajin' gak dlm m'baca....buku kalu bukak jer, ader la thn dlm 15minutes je..lain pe yg aku buat, kalu tak tido, aku dgr laguz, kalu tak pun aku tgk cd.....hohoh...

tu baru bab baca m'baca, blum masuk bab nak exam...mase exam la kepala aku akn jd biyul...mase degree dulu, sempt lg g main gamez, torik2 ya'kulu hawa', ade pasar mlm dkt tp nk gk g yg jauh2nyer....huhuhu...akan begini lgkah aku????mcm ye je coz ni tak bg effect ape2pun kt cgpa....alhmdulillah still can got good pointer....syukur.....

so, my frenz out there, sokong la aku demi mase dpn ku...heheh...poyos jer...

BERCUTI di KL....hakhak....

minggu lepas g turun KL dgn kak wafa...nk g kawin kamal je pun....almaklumlah, kwn opis so, g gak la..nnti kalu aku kawin kang tak de yg nk dtg, aku gak yg sedih...so, better aku yg tgh single mingle a.k.a ADD n DROP ( term mase kt uia dulu...heheh) ni dtg je kenduri kawin kwn aku...hohoh....

kt kenduri kawin tuh...pe yg blaku...ehmm....tak la syok sgt...yg syok nyer ade emmbe2 opis yg lame....kemeriahan kawin pn tak la rase sgt...bese nyer kalu g kawin kwn2, aku de gak trase nk cepat2 kawin nyer...ni g kawin kamal, tak dpt aura kawin pun..huhuhuh...

mase mkn, dok sblh big bos mase kt cheras dulu...fuyoh!!!!berdegup kencang aliran darah aku...hikhikhik....

sedikit kecewa gak coz aku tak dpt mkn nasi minyak n lauk feberet aku; ayam msk meraah...
sedih sgt coz ngidam sgt2......tak lame pun kat umah kamal tuh...tak tau nk wat pe lg..so pas mkn n ambik gmbr sekeping dua (cam pe je sekeping dua..nape ek????) then kitorang smua trus balik...kitorang cam tak minat nk gmbr byk2.....hakhak...

pas balik tuh g teman kak wafa g JJ utk beli present kt 'fren' dia...kuikui...sape ni kak wafa??????ngeh3......kejap je pun coz kak wafa ade 'urgent meeting' dgn 'fren' dia tu la....

so, aku n kak ina yg kebosan ni pun, ligat gunakan otak kitorg n pikir n rayap ke mane...dah jauh menungkan baik buruk ke sesuatu tmpt tuh, lastly we choose ALAMANDA!!!!!

shopping sakan gak la kt alamanda tuh...hukhuk..habeh gaji aku...da la bulan nih aku mmg bkl pegang title MAMA KEDANA.....chihuahuhauhua......rase nyer, kt alamanda ni la last aku nk shopping sakan makan pun..pas ni, jimat thp cermat la aku....

kt alamanda tak lame pun coz mlm tu lak ade 'tontonan' d JJ...tgk MADAGASCAR ESCAPE 2 AFRICA!!!!dgn kak wafa n pija skali...hohoh...penat gak seharian bjalan....

ahad tu lak tak kemana pun...g mkn MC'D je dgn kak ina...ntah aper gial aku mase tuh, aku mkn mmg agk bbagus skali...air milo aku order 2, ayam 2 ketul yg salama ni aku susah nk hbskan, tibe2 habeh kedua2 nya skali....ngeh244...aku ker itu???????

dlm kul 3ptg, btolak blik ke ipoh...hukhukhukhukhuk...sedih gak laaaaaa.....

PAGI YG CERIA SUDDENLY........

pagi ni bermula dgn suasana yg agak ceria gak..but suddenly, my mood changed...
juz bcoz of sumthin dat not supposed 2 b....

i really mad wif myself....how could i?????aku ke yg jadikan diri aku mcm ni????m i da 1 dat shuld b blamed 4?????don know how 2 think!!!!wat 2 do!!!!!
anyone. can u help me?????

my fren ever said 2 me, "da worst regret we can have in life is not 4 da wrong thingz we did,but 4 da rite things we cud have done but we never did.. "
btolkan?????persoalan pd aku skang ni, mane kekuatan pd diri aku ni????wat m waiting 4?????nk tunngu sampai diri ni btol2 dah HANCUR bru nk dpt kekuatan????m i idiot????

ada ketika aku fikir, aku tak sanggup nk lalui semua ni....aku nk ubah semuanya..
pagi ni, buat aku berfikir lg.....b4 diz, also keep thinking bout da same thingz...
seems like i can change it, but, y i still wait n did da same...

m so tired wif myself.....
letih dgn hal2 yg sbnr nyer i can solve it but, i juz wait n c 4 nothing....
sometimes, aku bpikir gak, wat actully i want?????y i let diz happened????

my choice in my hands!!!i olready learnt bout diz since i was in primary school..
lg lame dbiarkan, hal akan jd tmbh parah....bile ni yg berlaku, don even regret!!!don want it occur 2 me!!!!TAK NAK!!!!!!

sgt2 takut skang ni....olwayz hope, God give me a strength 2 face ol of these....
moga smua hal2 yg bermain d fikiran dat disrupted my daily journey, dpt aku atasi A.S.A.P....don want 2 wait anymore....

mayb need some time bcoz, nk cari cara yg paling berkesan utk atasi semua ni....
dear my frenz dat i loved u, pliz help me....NAT, JID n MIE(miza) especially... u guys, i really need u......

MASTER!!!!!!

m going 2 further my study in MASTER...insyaAllah...
hope kali ni can do well....b4 ni maser ambik degree, byk gak yg dah tersalah caturan...

when i was in degree, 1st year, ikut kwn je...cam tak tau nk buat hal sendiri..
cam tak der pegangan n prinsip sendiri jer...
jadual kelas pun nk ikut kwn gak...walhal, i really dislike dat subject dat i took during dat time...how can i did it!!!!!!destroyed myself!!!!!!

tak salahkan kwn but my fault laaaa....so, started wif 2nd year, i learnt from my mistake.....even my fren or erti kata lain, my gangstarz (hohoh) don want 2 do their practical, me vice versa......

it is true dat frenz r important too but, dlm case yg bermain dgn prinsip kita ni, sometimes ourself must come 1st.....cam gak master ni....hopefully, i can do my best coz it is my future....mine not ontherz!!!!!!

dulu mase degree, penah skali did a big idiot mistake...lost my marks around 30marks....juz bcoz tak perasan soalan jer...nk 4 soalan tp answered 3 questions only....

my merely idiot mistake during 3 years in degree!!!!da kuar dewan bru sedar, so, wat can i do....let it b je la...sudah nyer A jd B je...huhuh

master is not only 2 b proud wif but, it is a future!!!!!tersangat2 penting!!!!nyawa n my tru luv.....ecehceh...tp btol laaa coz 4 diz time being master je la peneman suka duka....huhuh

actually, nk buat master ni pun got a challenge gak...m really confious bout in wat course i really interested in....yg sebetul2nya, really minat sgt kt MBA....tp requirement nyer too high....then byk sgt pre-requisite..ni kalu kt uia laaa....
then, beralih arah lak kt MANAGEMENT....ehmmm...diz course not really my interest.....if talk bout POLITIC, actually, m too tired wif it!!! too much 2 read, 2 get know.....ehmmm....

i know myself...m very 'hardworking' student n in person...hikhikhik....beli buku mmg suka sgt2 tp baca buku ada la dlm 10minit then 30minit lg listen 2 da music....kuikuikui....

master ni cant play around....commitment must b a trillion percent!!!!cam nk bg commitment in marriage la gak...hakhakhak...

Ya Allah ya tuhanku, pliz help me...give me UR bless....amiiinnnn

wat say u?????

aloha......

hari ni cam p'mulaan baru dlm hidup....wat is blog using 4?????
sumtimes, we need a place 2 tell our feels....

mmg kita ader kwn, but, they also have their own thingz 2 do...so, takkan kita nk disrupted plak...

even perhaps no one read our story but we'll feel satisfied bcoz at least kita da luahkan ckit dr aper yg kita pendam...

so, 4 me, diz is wat blog can benefits 2 me....i don ask anybody 2 read but if there is unless one person who can spend a second in my story, m very glad n thankful 2 God......

hidup kita sentiasa memerlukan sokongan dr mereka2 yg rapat dgn kita...
mayb sebagai semangat pd kita utk kita hadapi segala cabaran yg ader kt dunia nih.....

it is a LIE if we said dat, we can live our life by our own!!!!!!!!
ader yg fikir blog ni juz waste our time....it depends on pur intention....
4 me, its GUD!!!! kisah suka duak kwn2 kita yg mane mungkin dia berat mulut nk bercerita tp ringan tgn tulis kt blog nih, we can know....

can b a medium 4 communication.....

JUZ A BEGiNNiNG

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.....


1stly...thanx 2 jid saburi a.k.a wanjid coz bg tnjuk ajar kt blog nih...
ngeh3...cam pe je jid..promo 4 u....